My old personal trainer would have scolded me for thinking in such a way, but it was the truth
The problem with taking time off is that it’s hard to go back to how things used to be. When COVID first hit, my gym closed down. My thoughts at the time were those of relief, because I was too nervous to go out in public at the time. I became more sedentary, spending a lot of time on the sofa watching television. Before I knew it, three months had gone by and I had not worked out once. I was not sleeping well, my health was poor, and yet I continued to be lazy and not get back to exercise. When the gym finally opened back up I had put on thirty pounds, had lost all definition, and felt like a sack of crap. I know from personal experience that people don’t go to the gym to mock other people, they go to take classes and lift weights. People at the gym are focused on themselves and their own bodies, and yet I still felt too self conscious to go back! I started to take long walks during the evening, to really work up a sweat, and then I would do yoga stretches to cool down afterward. It felt good, but it was not enough. I realized I was just trying to lose enough weight to feel comfortable returning to the gym. My old personal trainer would have scolded me for thinking in such a way, but it was the truth. After I lose five pounds maybe I will feel confident enough to go back to the local gym.